Wednesday, March 31, 2010

As unto the Lord

So today has been a pretty rough day. I got my first 'verbal warning' in my life. This is just after I've been dealing with one of the most incompetent bosses ever. At first I thought maybe it was me, maybe I've been over exaggerating, being overly sensitive, etc. Well that idea was knocked down, when five other co-workers expressed the same feelings. I have no problem admitting when I am in the wrong, hence the self examination, but when other people who work just as hard as you have the same complaints...well everybody can't be wrong/crazy.


GOD you are soo good. God has a way of getting you just what you need, just when you need it. I'm so thankful that there are people in my life, who love me, and love God, and can offer up words of spiritual encouragement.

I've decided to change my attitude, this job, how I treat people, what I do...see for a brief moment I forgot that all that I do I do as unto the Lord, not unto man. Thank you for this reminder, because now none of how I felt matters. I will do my job as unto the LORD, not unto anybody else.

Let's Get It!

Thursday, March 25, 2010


So its been two weeks since my last blog, and great, great, great, news....I'M GOING TO JAPAN!!!!! yea buddy, I leave July 12, and begin a new chapter in my book of life. I'm a little scared, but you can't overcome fears unless you face them, so I facing them head on.

This trip is only because God's hand and his favor rests on me. I know it is only by his grace, that I have been given this opportunity. I'm stepping out on faith, for the provisions to go on this AMAZING trip. God has/is/was/always blessing me, and I'm so grateful for his great works.


So it hit me yesterday, while I was looking in the mirror at myself, i realized that I will never be thin. I know it sounds really lame, but i just really figured out that I will NEVER be skinny. And i cried. weight has always been a big (no pun intended) issue to me. My grandmother called me fat for years, and i can see how it really affected me. I'm the biggest woman in my immediate family; so being called fat for years didn't help.

I was immediately reminded that I am/was "fearfully and wonderfully made." and "before the creation of the world," God knew me, and knew how i would look. So loving myself is really just agreeing with God that he did an incredible job creating me. Now that doesn't mean I should not be healthy/fit, but it does help me change the way I view myself.


Tuesday, March 9, 2010

Content with contentment

As I'm preparing for this transition, I'm constantly reflecting on life choices, plans, etc. I'm reminded of Paul saying "I know what it is to be in need, and I know what it is to have plenty. I have learned the secret of being content in any and every situation, whether well fed or hungry, whether living in plenty or in want." Phil. 4:12 (NIV)
Contentment, is a word society rarely uses. Contentment does not mean you've settled, it means you've learned to find the good in any situation, and be grateful for it.


Tuesday, March 2, 2010

Not your average jo-ann

So last night I had dinner with a good friend of mine. I must say it was soo refreshing being able to converse with a young man who is focused, of good moral character, genuine, and an all around stand up guy. After our conversation, I was forced to re-analyze myself, my goals, and my plan. I realized that just being status quo, does not and will not bring about greatness.

I've never been the 'average' girl. I can admit, that a part of me has always wanted to be average, to fit in like everybody else, but no matter how much I've tried, average does not fit me. I have always stood out, gone against the crowd, ruffled feathers...been a rebel, and I'm just now really accepting that that is who I am. Who I was born to be. Followers, the status quo, are not the people who evoke change.

So thank you Mr. Houston, I'm so glad I'm not average....because average doesn't get things done.